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[21 Dec 2006|03:16am] trailofembers for anyone who is still interested. %

&; (head desk. head desk. head desk.) [14 Dec 2006|02:18am] turned this monster in to the enviro sci office today. i have not slept in 39 hours. (my senior thesis might turn out to be a pamphlet compared to this thing. why is a giant synthesis the final project for an introductory course half the school only puts up with to fulfill the lab science requirement? i don't understand, i don't understand... anyway, many thanks to the choirgirl hotel and two cappucinos for helping me through the night. now the first hurdle is over and i play achaea* and neopets to my heart's content. until i have to buckle down and rememorize 1,000 characters for my chinese final, anyway.) * if any of you still play, my name is ilandere ("moon woman"). drop me a line if you want. 5%

&; houdini [29 Nov 2006|02:03am] ( somewhat time consuming, but entertaining nonetheless. ) it's too bad i'm neither honest nor insightful. this result still has some truth to it, though: i refrain from taking advantage of people and especially hate it when sensitivity is exploited because god knows i'm hypersensitive myself. i've managed to maintain some strong relationships despite my tendency toward hermitude and misanthropy, and my outlook on life isn't as cynical as it is a cautious realism with snarky undertones. - today's kimism: "don't worry, your leg will get better. it might even improve!" 2%

&; "wanna die? drink coffee." [27 Nov 2006|03:30am] [ music | canon in d ] this morning: woke up, instantaneously forgot my dream, pushed back the comforter and rolled into the cold morning air, so happy i was to hear my birds chirping again! the green one was sick over thanksgiving break. we had to rush him to the vet's and waited three hours for a diagnosis and treatment. naturally, i was so distraught over my bird's health and the possibility of it falling dead off its perch that i forgot to bring any homework with me - and so, i got absolutely nothing done on a day that was supposed to be dedicated to my hudson river report. that's okay, though. this whole ordeal is proof that some things are more important than grades. (& money. mother wasn't too happy about paying the enormous vet fees. i offered to split the bill with my brother the next time we have to get medical treatment for our pets.) we were worried for awhile that the bird wouldn't make it. but he's recovered nicely overnight, and it's likely he'll be back to normal within a few days. we'll just be more careful about where we put the cage from now on. ( putting the rest under a cut because so many line breaks must be annoying. ) ... good night. 4%

&; what i need [16 Nov 2006|03:03am] to do: - memorize 200 chinese characters for tomorrow's test - study 2 chapters of japanese for tomorrow's test - learn how to go to bed earlier + obtain the necessary signatures for my major declaration form to curb: - sugar intake - procrastination - parentheses usage - adverb usage to listen to: + la valse d'amelie + rebellion lies + inner universe / rise + let go to remember: + what lina told me: that i am capable of building healthy relationships + i am loved. their affection for me is independent of their feelings for other people to forget: - doubt (am i loved? can i love? do i have any ability as _______?) to stop: - fearing HAPPINESS, the path to HAPPINESS, the path to where is it? 1%

&; sleepy rant. [15 Nov 2006|10:46am] [ mood | caffeine craving ] up at 6am this morning to sign up for limited enrollment (l) courses. while columbia students take care of their programming online, barnard girls have to wait on line at the registrar's office. it's an utterly ridiculous system, and completely unfair because sometimes the class you want/need fills up with students from the other side of the street before you even have a chance to give connie the call number. and then there's the competition on your side; by midday, the line extends from the registrar's desk, around the corner past the president's office, down a very long corridor out into the main hall. now you know why i insist on going to the registrar at the crack of dawn. (it doesn't open until nine. but yes, i did get into both my limited enrollment classes this morning, so it was worth sleeping on the floor for three hours.) right now i'm copying notes for my environmental science class. or, rather, peter bower's soapbox, as it should be called because the class has very little to do with the environment and is mostly just our professor ranting about geographic illiteracy and how terrorists want to kill us, etc. (i was at his office the other day to pick up materials for an extra credit project. there were autographed portraits of george w. and laura bush on his wall, so i suspect he knows the president personally.) i have a test today on rachel carson's "flood tide," which was actually an interesting read compared to the usual drivel by robert boyle ... that man is too obsessed with fish. who wants to read about mating shad "splashing vigorously" in the waters of their local river? not me. and not surprisingly, i haven't been doing well on the tests lately. maybe i should get back to reviewing now, so i don't fail this next one as well. but i'm also feeling groggy, and that's no way to take a test. so maybe i'll get some coffee at java city instead. 3%

&; stand alone complex [15 Nov 2006|01:34am] [ music | aeria gloris ] Even when I'm dead, I'll swim through the Earth, like a mermaid of the soil, just to be next to your bones. most nights, words like these are my only consolation. (they're never mine.) ... 1 - today chinese was a succession of awkward drill prompts. (unit three in our textbook is about evolving perspectives on romance & dating in china. our vocabulary list includes words like "be in love" and "speed dating." so of course class would be awkward, come time for drill.) i keep my head low to avoid being called on, but nobody can avoid the spotlight for an hour and twenty-five minutes: "if you were given the opportunity, who would you like to be left alone with?" – the absurd prompt, translated from the chinese. i shrug and respond “just somebody," and may or may not have used the sentence pattern on the cue card. the light is deflected onto another student; i'm safe but still flustered because of course i take these things too seriously and of course i had to be thinking of him... ! 2 - my first kiss was kind of stolen from me. i say kind of because i kind of let it happen. (i say kind of because i had some reservations about hooking up with a stranger but didn't really resist his advances.) inebriated, i obviously wasn't thinking straight. but never once did i feel cheated, not now, not when i pulled away that night before things could go any further and stumbled back upstairs past the bar and the korean girls wearing too much make up, out into the lamplit street where the beggars found me fumbling with my cell phone keys. in hindsight, it might have been my only chance. 7%

&; low. [25 Oct 2006|02:28am] 01 White Stripes - Blue Orchid 02 George Gershwin - Rhapsody in Blue 03 Blue Man Group - Rods and Cones 04 Elvis Presley - Blue Suede Shoes 05 The Carpenters - Rainy Days and Mondays always get me down. %

&; from literaryquotes [22 Oct 2006|10:08pm] When I was a girl, my life was music that was always getting louder. Everything moved me. A dog following a stranger. That made me feel so much. A calendar that showed the wrong month. I could have cried over it. I did. Where the smoke from a chimney ended. How an overturned bottle rested at the edge of a table. I spent my life learning to feel less. Every day I felt less. Is that growing old? Or is it something worse? You cannot protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness. -- Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close %

&; where i'd rather be. [22 Oct 2006|04:50pm] 28 AUG 06 DEP: NINOY AQUINO INT'L AIRPORT (0810) ARR: HONG KONG INT'L AIRPORT (1010) 1%

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